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Name: Tomi
Location: Fargo, North Dakota, United States
Birthday: 11/16/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I love sketching, and I love comfortable t-shirts, I like shopping, I like talking to people, I love music: It fuels me!!! Everything I do is somehow linked to music.
Expertise: I know for sure that I am not an expert at faxing documents. I'm also not an expert on boys...Worrying about the things that require no worries. Eating ice cream, slacking off till the last moment on some things.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  ReasonYou4
Member Since:
3/3/2005
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| It's my birthday today. I have one class at 2pm, and maybe a play at 7:30pm. That's it. What have I done today so far? Driven drunk people around because they had no one else to drive them, I am almost being pushed into other people's drama. No good at all. I have also listened to said drunk people singing the cure while I'm upstairs watching a cartoon. However, at midnight exactly, I was talking to the only person I really wanted to be talking to. Well, not talking, but texting. I was, and it made me so much happier. Then tomorrow, I have to study for my test that I have on Friday, so it'll be low-key. But I am ordering Coldstone Creamery delivery with my roommate and then we're gonna go to the dining center's Thanksgiving feast. And I might go to Wendy's work and get free dessert. Oh wow. I'm turning 19, and it makes me kind of sad because I had a list of things I would accomplish before turning 19 and I accomplished maybe 4 out of 19 things? Missed the mark by a lot, huh? Oh well, can't get down about it...Tomorrow's another day and it'll be a good day, I hope. | | |
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So last night, I was working on my blasted speech, and I was almost in the zone. You know the zone. Well, I was basically in it, when my AIM message catcher chimed. What this nifty little deal does is that it catches IMs from screennames that are not on my buddy list. So I was curious and wanted to see who was IMing me. Seriously, guess who it was. A certain person with the initials A.M. [if you know who I'm talking about, whatever]. When I saw his screenname [that I had deleted], the zone started to float away from me, and I was reaching hard for the zone just because it was zooming away so quickly away from me. Anyway, he wanted to know If I had called him on saturday night and had a "strange conversation" with him. Or maybe it was one of my friends. I was just like "Oh I don't have your number anymore so it couldn't have been me." He's like "Oh I see. Wait why don't you have my number anymore?" And I told him that I had deleted it to serve two purposes: 1. To make me feel better in that moment when I was very, very angry with him. 2. So that I wouldn't give him a call or text him during one of my moments of weakness. Deleting his number, while it seems like such a petty thing, made feel so strong that one night. Anyway, we tried to make small talk but like it's been since 'the event', it was dull, forced, and more than a bit awkward. But you know what? I didn't really care, and suddenly the zone was floating gently back to me. Sometimes, in my head, I fantasize that he will say sorry or something close to that for hurting me like he did, but I know it won't happen. I hope it will just because it was getting to the point where I had a dream about him, and he was a jerk to me in my dream. It won't happen though, and I'm basically okay with that. I can honestly say I don't really care [actually, that was a lie. I do care, but I just won't ever show it or allow it to come to the surface]. That was it. I thought I'd tell someone just because I can't tell my roommate anything without it becoming a production or it becomes the Spanish Inquisition and I'm not allowed to breathe until I answer all of the 10,000 questions she has. Gah.....
IF YOU WERE WONDERING, I AM RUNNING ON 3 HOURS OF SLEEP AND 6 SHOTS OF ESPRESSO, JUST BECAUSE THAT'S HOW I ROLL. ACTUALLY, IT'S BECAUSE I HAD MORE THINGS TO DO THAN I THOUGHT AND THE HOURS DON'T STOP FOR ANYONE, SO I HAD TO FIND A WAY TO CATCH UP WITH THE TIME. I THINK I'M ALMOST AT THE POINT OF BEING IMMOBILE. TOO TIRED TO OPEN MY EYES ALL THE WAY. IT'S AN INTERESTING EXPERIENCE. YOU SHOULD ALL LOOK INTO IT. COFFEE IS AN AMAZING AND INTEGRAL PART OF HUMAN EXISTENCE. MINE IN PARTICULAR THESE DAYS.
GOODNIGHT, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| I just woke up 15 minutes ago. Why? Well, I had an interseting night and ended up going to iHop with someone I'd known for 6 hours at 4:30-ish in the morning. [not particularly a sound idea just because I didn't really know this person.] But we had a lot of fun. I ordered some pancakes and then realized that I wasn't super hungry, so I made a 'masterpiece' with my pancakes and chocolate chips. And our waiter was so awesomely nice even though he always forgot something whenever he went back to the kitchen. But he was so so nice and just a really cool guy. I'm gonna hope that he's my waiter next time. Then we wanted to go to Walmart. And this is around 6am. So wewent over there forgetting that they close at midnight on the weekends. So then, we were going to go watch the new season of Family Guy, but then we both realized that we have tons of stuff to do today, so I was dropped off, and we are probably hanging out again today. But now........I have to wake up at 5:30am tomorrow! Yay!.......Not so much. Well, I'm off to work on my speech and then go meet with my group for Comm 110. | | |
| BOYS LIKE GIRLS = Band I'd love to meet. Because they are the shiznit.
WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE = New single from MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE = Amazingly Wonderful song that makes me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside. It also makes me love them more if that's even possible.
INTERNSHIP = A good time. It's too early in the morning for me though--> 5:30am every other day. No-no. But it's a good time so far.
SCHOOL = Kicking my butt right now, 2 tests on Tuesday, A speech coming up on Monday, and papers and such all smooshed in-between.
WEATHER = Snowed for the 1st time today-> No good at all. Really Sad...Umm, bought a cup of coffee and my account might be overdrawn, but let's hope I acted quickly enough to avoid paying $35 for a cup of disgusting coffee.
LIMEWIRE = No good, especially when you get caught by the school and they delete all your music and you have to upload all your cds over again!
NEW SHOES = Happiness, especially since they make me almost 6' tall. : D
YOU = An unexpected but definitely wanted distraction of sorts. I'm glad I met you [again] and I'm glad you're staying in my life this time. : D
DEVIN = Confusing, but no worries because it seems like good news from now.
GIRLS ON 6TH FLOOR = Amazingly beautiful lovelies that I enjoy spending time with.
GUYS ON 7TH FLOOR = Awesomely wonderful men I'm glad I am sharing living space with.
HANNAH = "My boob twin" and co-conspirator
BRITTA = Basically, awesomeness
JENNY = Love
ROOMMATE = the BEST
JOB = Money
MONEY = New Coat from PacSun
NO FUN = THE FACT THAT IT'S SNOWING OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FINDING MY KINDRED SPIRIT IN A 22 YEAR OLD GOLFER BOY = Finally!
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I believe that's it for updates. Updates I wish to inform people of anyway. School's been good so far, I love it. I need time to breathe though, because if I don't inhale pretty soon, I'm going to run out of air, and space, and mind power. | | |
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Back from the ACF Regional Conference in Louisville, KY and let me tell ya, it was a ton of fun. Met a lot of Nigerian people and it was amazing how at home I felt with Nigerians that were around my age. I learned how to dance. Really.[thanks Ike and Mary and bowls]. It was awesome. I liked a lot of the sessions and I loved when we sang for the banquet. I witnessed a double dose of a silly little proposal. I took amazing pictures on the way back. It was a 12-14 hour trip each way. with little 5 year olds on the bus....what a fun trip. I liked it a lot though. Got to room with the besty. Loved it.
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So....less than 2 weeks until I'm back in F-town. I am excited. I am sort of nervous because I feel like there's going to be old drama stewing and waiting for me when I get there. Oh well, though. I think that half the time last year, I was sort of begging for the drama and that's no good. I've decided that I will keep my friends friends. I won't do things hoping that things won't get weird because they ALWAYS, ALWAYS do. I will also be very careful when it comes to some things that I absorb into my system. Physically, emotionally, psychologically. I want to be more mature this year yet have a lot more fun at the same time. I believe it's possible and I will work hard towards it. Although I'm turning 19 in about 3 months, I feel like I've gone out and acted the fool and done all the immature and stupid things you're supposed to do as a teenager. I'm not quite out of that phase yet, but I think I should be more careful. In the way I present myself, in the way I deal with my emotions, and in such a way that my heart won't get broken anymore. | | |
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